Are you bisexual?
"You know, sometimes i think God has a reason to all his actions even if sometimes those may seem cruel.
Never had i known what pain was or what loneliness felt like until he decided time was up for another human being and this time it was someone i knew, someone i loved..
For years i asked myself what the reason was, what motivated him to take away a good father, a great friend, someone who was worth having around in this fucked up
society, until i stopped looking for answers that i was probably never going to get and i started living, i stumbled upon thousands of people but not all with the same
purpose, throughout my journey called life i was hurt many times, i tried to stay the same sweet child who everyone admired for not having one of those days where
they sent it all to hell even knowing that the pain was slowly increasing inside me. I encountered people who had good intentions towards me but i did not believe in
anything nor anyone, my hopes were gone or maybe they had just been destroyed.
My innocence did not exist anymore, until the day came along..i realized that a person can NEVER be replaced but new ones come along to teach you, you must not stop
living, the reason god still has you here is because he knows you are strong and if not you will learn how to be and that is what happened. A girl now a woman learned
about life thanks to him who in many situations didn’t give me other option then to continue on my own.
He sent me someone, to me he is an angel, a person with a character very similar to mine, maybe not the same sex or skin as white as mine but someone whom i could just
be myself with. I could speak and there was no reason for secrets, everything was said in this conversations between two and the purest of airs.
It was amazing what a simple dialogue created between two humans, in this ocassion him being my relief and in that moment there was no one better, he understood, no
questions or explanations asked for.
The day came when i felt some sort of attraction, out of nowhere, huge chemistry, something that thrilled me…that thrill gave me some type of confusion something
unexplainable, i was feeling strange, mi friends said it was LOVE but i no longer believed in that, love to me was disappointment and pain but this feeling,
this feeling felt good, made me happy for once. Didn’t fit inside of me at some point.
The laughs he was able to provoked in me left me speechless, the way he did not care about the rest of the world…just me. It was amazing a person, a human,
he loved me. I felt lucky and eternally blessed but the mistrust still lived in me. I didn’t let that defeat me this time, i let this feeling flourish.
My happiness just kept growing, every touch, every smile was the motive to my days.
I fell in love it was unexpected at least from my view, it fulfilled my soul with love with passion and mostly sweetness. By his side i grew and learned, him being
my role model, he was going through the transition into becoming a man, graduating all at once, and he did successfully. Now i admire him even more, he taught me i
shall always look forward not only for yourself but for those who are to come. He was the one i waited for so long and just like that..he discovered me.
This story might someday reach its ending like every other but it is up to us to make it a happy ending or a story with no ending. I wanna grow up and say “look how
far we have gotten, im proud of our growth, we didn’t let all the obstacles or ourselves destroy what slowly kept growing.”
My soulmate i want it all with you, together we will defeat all odds, we will never feel pain or loneliness again.
I bow to always look for your happiness that being me or not, i will cherish every moment i spend by your side, i wont let you down, you are my goal, my wish it to
keep you in my life, ALWAYS.
Thank you for staying, through the distance, the fights, the disappointment all the wrongs i brought in to us. All the sadness i gave to you, i guess we weren’t the
ones to surpass this for once. I’m backing away, the pain it came back to haunt my body but i wont let it haunt yours. Please bow to me you will be happy.
your happiness is always going to be my number 1, that being me or not…i love you don’t you ever forget that.
Now please remember this space deep in my heart will always be vacant waiting for you to come back, but for now go on, live your life."
dont even know where i stand anymore
Mean Girls Marathon ♥